Closure.

I did it because I love him, and I could never make him happy, and I won’t be able to make anyone happy. It’s not in the cards for me, and I blame my parents for that as well as my continuous tendency of self love, my independence, and goals.

I couldn’t and can’t have both, so I chose, and did what I had too.

He’ll thank me one day though, after the wounds have healed and after he has found the one that deserves him most.

He’ll thank me for giving him a certain freedom.

I love you Tom.

Ps: I feel much better that I have come to my senses, in allowing myself to see what I already knew.I still love him, and I can't turn off my emotions. I now honor my true feelings, and with time I know that I will get over him, it'll just take a bit longer, then expected.