Vagina, Penis & Trannies

She felt compelled to express that I for one, looked like some tyranny. Joe, my boyfriend at the time confided in me with this, and I remember clearly laughing at his ex-girlfriend’s remark.
These days I have come to realize that when I look upon myself in the mirror, I don’t quite see the conventional cute, teenybopper beauty that I once had.

I, for one have come to terms that at times some aspects of masculinity in my strong features of my face are easily visible and embraced, involuntarily. In that I mean, with my nose and its long bridge, my cheekbones, eyes, and eyebrows, I can look both very feminine and masculine at the same time.
However, I am neither ugly nor gorgeous, but that I am most intriguing looking.













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I was in my Intro to Queer Theatre class today, and it was said that Lady Gaga, one of my idols, is known to cultivate some error of mystery of playing on the idea of being a man or woman. I feel as though, she also has embraces some masculinity, because she, too has strong facial features. Her eyes and her cheek bones both give her a feminine look, but her nose and its long bridge does otherwise.


Leona Lewis, shows similar qualities in that she has a long bridge of a nose that makes her look like a lion. Her eyes and cheek bones also give her a soft look to make her feminine.

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1. I value Chimi Choi more than most people I know or have known.

2. I hate living in my apartment for the reasons that I no longer have it in me to associate with fake people, whom, live under the same roof as I do. I truly have a spectacular partner in crime Chimi Choi. The way we both perceive it, is simply us against them.

3. My hair is crisp, and I hope to find some way to rejuvenate it.

4. I use commas a lot when I type things up, and it’s slightly annoying.

5. I am almost done with the third book of the Twilight series, and I honestly don’t want it to end.

6. I love running.

7. I met some girl today in which it was a pleasure conversing with at Borders; she me my Hazelnut latte. Becca.

8. I only have four true and loving friends to call my own: Denise, Samantha, Michelle, Chimi.

9. I am sad that Jasmine isn’t who she used to be, she turns me off most of the time, and what’s worse is that I am not the only one who feels this way, either. Who is she now, and what happened to the real person, I loved so much? I want her back.

10. I am sad, that Ryan and I aren’t friends, POSSIBLY, because he’s whipped by his girlfriend who he has confided in me that she can be jealous or snappy at times. I feel that she is the reason why me and Ryan don’t talk anymore, and what makes me mad is that he chose Ana altogether, without trying to remain friends with Ami and I. How unfair it is to know that we were the ones there for him when he needed it most last school year, while his girlfriend was still in a relationship, to indecisive on who she wanted and at the same time hurting Ryan. Fuck you.

11. I have realized as of recent, that the last time I had conversed with Tom on the phone, I had apologized; after the phone call I thought I had closure, but then found out that saying sorry wasn’t quite what I wanted to say. If I had another chance, I would do it all over by confiding in him that I am not sorry that we met, I am not sorry that it’s over, and lastly I am not sorry, and will never be sorry that there is nothing to say. Needless to say, I hope that he succeeds, and finds someone else who will love him, as he or anyone should be loved.I want him to be happy. As for me, I have things to do, people to see, and ect. I will always love him however, unconditionally regardless of us not being together forever as he planned. I miss him dearly. There, I said it.

12. I miss Denise and I hope she comes back to California this summer.

13. I deleted my Myspace, Facebook, Stickam, and VampireFreaks accounts, and I’m glad I did it.

14. I am disgusted that my former boss from Gamestop, won’t stop making passes at me.


I miss:

First Day of my Life

...this is such a beautiful song, I remember it from Tom introducing it to me when we were together, but needless to say, it's amazing.

It makes me smile.